Valentine's Day

Saturday night, Mike and I went to the Improv with Monica and Sherman. We decided this would be our Valentine's Day dinner. We both have been there done it with the large crowds on Valentines Day so we thought this would be better. We talk about the move in together then some more. I mentioned some of my fears and decided the only way this will work is to lay it all out in the open, so I did. He is good to talk to and listens very well. We had a nice evening.

I went to work today and sent a text to Mike that I had a card for him and would drop it by on my way home from work. I ended up taking Spunky to the vet and then went back to work. Mike called and wanted to know if I was still coming by. He said he had dinner for us. I thought it was so nice of him to do this. He is so simple, yet thoughtful. I love his laid back way of living. It will be good for me. I talked to him again some more about it tonight and we've decided it will happen when it warms up. He has space to hold all my furniture that we don't use in the merge of homes. It will be fun and exciting for both of us. I think it will help Jamie to have me around and the dogs will love each other, too. I am excited, but grounded. I feel like life is finally getting to a very happy place and my heart has little jumps in it all the time. It's good to be in love!

Is my life about to change?

Well, it's been awhile since I've set down to blog and it feels like a good time to do that now. I have been dating and spending a lot of time with Carl and Jamie. Carl is my boyfriend and Jamie is his daughter. We both work and have been with our careers for many years. We've been talking about moving in together so we could have more money to enjoy life with. I am all for it, but I've spent the time in the past 2 years buying new and almost new furniture that I don't want to get rid of. I hate putting furniture in storage because of rodents and moisture. I won't let that stand in my way because I'm hoping we can have a fun and relaxing life together. It's on my mind a lot and I've thought about it over and over. I've worked hard to have a garage for my car and my own big closet. I am very picky about how my stuff is treated and how hard it makes life if I don't have room. It's something we've talked about and we can still discuss it. If I don't move in with him, I will be getting a smaller place to live. I don't need this much room. It was perfect for me when I was in the first stages of grieving and needed space and time to go through Ashley's things. I am almost done with that part of my life and ready to move on. I know that life is about to change and I welcome it. It is extremely boring and lonely right now.

Life feels beautiful today

Well, it is 9:19pm and I am setting on my bed with my right foot propped up on a pillow. Spunky (my puppy) is asleep with her head across my leg. I am watching TV and taking time-lapse photos of the snow. Sleep is not on my agenda tonight so I've decided to make the best of it. I am off work recovering from foot surgery and getting some severe cabin fever. My babe and I always text goodnight to each other. Since we are getting 8-10 inches of snow, he may be taking a vacation day. He called and we talked on the phone. God, I love talking to him. He has the coolest daughter and a big dog. I am so in love. Not sure i'd ever know love again after being so hurt before and then loosing my only child to suicide. I felt like I had too much baggage. We have been dating since September and it just gets stronger. We have relaxed around each other much better in the last month. I just feel like I have so much to say and can't post my every move on Facebook. Spunky has added a very fulfilling dimension to my life. She is a very sweet puppy and is very loving. She gets angry with me because I can't get up like I did before this foot surgery. As long as she has her dingo bones she is a happy camper.

Loving Life!

I was suprised this past week when Carl showed me a ring he had. Turns out, it was for me to wear as a sign that we are exclusive and plan to get married someday. Not sure when that will be, but it is exciting to me as I've always been the marrying kind. I love the companionship but also respect the individuality of both of us. He is the same. We are so good together and have so much fun. We laugh a lot which is important to me. According to him, We are getting married Saturday, we just don't know which one! LOL! I love the ring! It is so pretty and looks perfect on my hand. It's good to be in love again:)

Today, November 11, 2010

Life is starting to feel full and exciting again with a comfortable flair. Carl and I have been dating since September and we are at a very comfortable place. I love his daughter, Jamie and his dog Kacey. We enjoy getting out on the motorcycles and feeling the freedom of riding. We also like to go to saloons and listen to live blues, jazz, country or clasic rock music. Carl is so caring and kind but is all guy! That is what I like the most about him, he has his own garage where he hangs out and builds motorcycles or works on his vehicle. Jamie and I enjoy shopping, watching movies and laughing. I'm not sure where this is heading but I know for now that I am happy and feel content. Spunky is also new in my life. She is a puppy and keeps me on my feet:)..